Reawake

"Reawake"

I smile and feel good inside,
But I can’t seem to when I swallow my pride.
This has become both a curse and a blessing
And here, it’s my true confession.

I think about my friends almost all the time,
I always find myself playing on some rhyme,
Especially when I feel abandoned, or am all alone
But I always find a way, because I don’t have to on my own.

I feel lost and hopeless without my pride,
Yet it never seems to quench thirst or to satisfy,
And I force myself to bend until I break
Then given time, I reawake.

Suddenly again I see what this life is to me-
I see the woman I could come to be...
Now I’m lacking faith, but I’ll wake up tomorrow
Lacking the pity, the self damnations and the sorrow.

IDOMAD, 2007