"I Still"

I still search for you in the halls
I still search for comfort in your eyes,
I still see your reflection in truth,
In the beauty of the sunrise.

I still search for the words to say,
And search for the voice in my head,
And so many comforts that go unheard,
So many thoughts that go unheard.

But instead, someone's in your place,
There is emptiness in your stare,
And with that truth that does not leave,
There is this looming sense of what's unfair.

The silence jabs into my soul,
And without eye contact, silence cannot speak.
But for a time, I will muster the strength
To walk motionless throughout these weeks.

I wrote this in January/ February of this year.

IDOMAD, 2009